Years ago, in the beginning of my freshman year of high school, i had this dream, just before 9/11. It was strong, vivid, and unlike anything I've ever experienced before. We've all had a dream at sometime or another in which we die or come close to dying....or kill somebody....or your dog dies....you get the idea. Well this dream involved my death, but unlike other dreams, it didn't end there.
Despite what the dream involves, I didn't really make the connection between my dream and 9/11 until years later, when I related the dream to a friend. It honestly never occurred to me. One scene however, came back with perfect clarity when I went through the temple for the first time.
By some miscommunication, I was the last of my family to enter the Celestial room. When I walked in, I saw my family standing in a circle,dressed in white, waiting for me to join them. The images of the dream I had and the feelings that came with it came back with full force. Whether it was supposed to happen that way or not, I am grateful that it did. It reminded me of my dream and the joy and peace that I wish to keep with me for life.
It took me a long time to write my dream down into a poem. After debating for a long time on whether or not to write it in the first place, it took me an even longer time to figure out how to write it. It took years to get it right. The feelings, words, images had to be perfect. I am still not sure if it's perfect or not, but I think it's as good as it can get.
Anyway, here it is. Hope you enjoy the fruits of my unending labor!
We were travelling back from somewhere
My family and I
Or perhaps were travelling to,
Though I can't remember why.
My daughter sits beside me
My husband takes the aisle
I gaze out of the window
My dread growing every mile.
Strange men have taken over
They say their cause is just
To honor their religion
We will die, because they must.
I try to shield my daughter
From the horror of this day
My husband takes my hand and asks
"How can it end this way?"
I shake my head and turn again
To look at land below
The city lies before us
The buildings start to grow.
All around us people scream
The plane echoes with their cries
My daughter turns to me and says
"Mama, will we die?"
Tears fill my eyes, I pull her close
"Yes, my child, we will."
My husbands arms encircle us
Fear and sorrow build.
We cling, we cry, holding tight
My heart within me rends
The tower is close, we're nearly done
We brace for life to end.
I hear a cry, a shout, a plea,
"Lord, let me feel no pain!"
My daughter trembles, my husband cries,
"We'll be together again!"
We smile now as people pray,
We know life will go on
Yet as the building fills my view
My fear is just as strong.
A jolt, a crash, a blinding light
And suddenly all is still
Darkness crowds, strong and thick
And I know we have been killed.
A doorway opens, light appears
Joy and hope now swell
I hear my name, called from a crowd
I know now where I dwell.
I'm surrounded by my family
And friends both loved and lost
Tears and laughter now abound
The prize was worth the cost.
Everyone is dressed in white
And holy is the place
I tremble now with joy and love
And the mercy of his grace.
The scene before me fades away
As if on gentle breeze
Two men now stand before my eyes
And bring me to my knees.
They call my name and beckon me
I find the strength to stand
Loving eyes now fill my view
As they gently take my hand
I feel their arms encircle me
And joy now overflows
They softly whisper, "Welcome home."
And the feeling only grows
My tears flow freely as the rain
The image fades away
I open eyes to see the sun
Slowly rising with new day
I'm in my room, tears stain my cheeks
It all had seemed so real
I marvel how a simple dream
Could such a scene reveal
The feelings linger with my tears
As silently I pray,
"Lord, help me never to forget
The dream I had this day.
The things I felt were real and strong,
The images so clear.
Help me keep them in my heart,
And may they never disappear!"
For death is just a passing
From one life to the next
A soft and swift as sleeping
A long eternal rest.
There is no fear in dying
When you know what lies ahead
In my mind, I've seen God's face
And felt his hand upon my head.
The memory of the dream I had
Will stay with me for life
And with each passing of the years
Will help me to do right.
For I know what joy awaits me
When I pass beyond the veil
And with my Savior by my side
I know I cannot fail.